I Wonder...

 (Matthew at 3 wks in 2011)

    

This sweet child of mine is my world.  He has a special spirit about him.  I often stroke his hair as he is sleeping and wonder why it took him so long to come to this world and join our family.  

I wonder what he would say if he could talk to us and tell us how it was like in the spirit world to be so close to Heavenly Father.  That veil is still thin and fresh in his mind.

I wonder if he knows just how much he is loved!

I wonder if he knows that I pray for him every single night.

I wonder if he already knows his purpose here on earth (besides bringing us SO much joy).

I wonder if he knows whether or not he will have siblings or be an only child.

I wonder what he will be like as a teenager, missionary, husband, father (I try not to think about it too much because I don't want him to grow up too fast!).

I wonder if he knows that he makes my heart grow bigger and want to explode with so much love.

Motherhood is indeed the hardest job.  I will never forget the journey it took for me to get here.  I look at my son every day and know that he was worth the biggest trial of my faith.

I know there are many women out there who are still on that journey.  Don't give up.  Keep fighting.  Keep believing.  And while Mother's Day is hard to bare, know that you are not alone.  Heavenly Father has a plan for all of us.  Seek comfort in his love.

I hope that all the mother's, future mother's, and mother figures all know that they are loved!

Happy Mother's Day!