(Abbey at 1 yrs old)
I don't know why but I've been feeling down the last few days. Maybe it's the weather? It's been cloudy and dreary (really, I don't have Seasonal Affect Disorder) Maybe it's because I quit cold turkey? Maybe it's the hormones? Who knows?!
I had a little bit of an emotional breakdown last night. I was feeling a little inadequate because I couldn't keep my house clean. I felt like my husband didn't love me enough (romance is not his forte). I kept thinking, what if this cycle doesn't work? How many more cycles can I endure? What if I'm not qualified to have babies? Needless to say, it was a long night. With each passing day, I am getting more and more anxious. But I keep praying (A LOT) that the Lord will bless me with strength to accept whatever it is that is to come. And that's all I can really do. Pray for peace. Pray for comfort. Pray for strength.
*Update* - Literally, five minutes after I posted this, the nurse from the RE's office called and told me that the other embryo's did not survive long enough to be frozen. I was sad to hear that and it made me tear up a little bit, but I pulled myself together. I feel like I'm on the brink of another cry fest. Holding it all back though.
*Update* - Literally, five minutes after I posted this, the nurse from the RE's office called and told me that the other embryo's did not survive long enough to be frozen. I was sad to hear that and it made me tear up a little bit, but I pulled myself together. I feel like I'm on the brink of another cry fest. Holding it all back though.
6 comments:
Hang in there. I almost cried for you. We are all emotiaonal wrecks...but He does have a plan. This verse always helped me through those difficult times...and the good ones too.
Jeremiah 29:11
btw...I have been wanting baked ziti ever since I read your post! haha!
I'm so sorry you're having a rough time. The stress of it all can really take it's toll. Saying a prayer for you!
GOSH, Yesterday must have been some crazy day or something because ALOT of people I read/know had awful days (including me- and I wrote a huge post about it!). I can't remember how I came upon your blog, but I'm a new reader, and you're in my prayers!!
Thank you for your comments! I am so excited! AND I am excited for you...you had two BEAUTIFUL embabies below....I am praying they are snuggling in and getting ready to stay for a long 9 months! I didn't ever have any make it to freeze....what got me through is remembering that what happened or didn't happen to the embryo's not put back...are not indicative of what's going on with the one's that were put back. Praying for you!
I'm sorry to hear you are having such a rough day. I hope things start to look up in the next couple days with some really fantastic news. Hang in there.
Hi,
I completely agree with you. I had my own emotional breakdown this past weekend. This journey we are on is a very difficult one. It is nice to know that we are not alone. Hugs!
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