Motherhood: The First Year



I remember the first time I laid eyes on my sweet baby boy.  My heart grew ten times larger and was filled with a love that I had never felt before.  His sweet spirit immediately filled the room and I knew my life would forever be changed.  If he could have talked, I imagine he would have said, "I'm finally here momma."

The first few months of motherhood was the hardest!  Oh, so hard! Nothing really prepares you for it.  The sleep deprivation that goes along with recovery makes it seem impossible at times, but then I hold Matthew and feel his soft skin against mine and I know all will be well. I prayed for this child and God answered my prayers and He would get me through the hard times.

Watching Matthew grow each month and reaching each milestone has been such a blessing. Hearing him laugh out loud is music to my ears.  Seeing him smile makes my day brighter.  I miss him when I'm out running errands without him. I even miss him when he's sleeping!  He is constantly on my mind all day long. 

Motherhood has taught me a love that goes deeper than any words can describe.  It has taught be to be patient, to be kind, to be more cognizant of the whisperings of the spirit.

Motherhood has increased my faith tremendously.  Anyone who has been on the infertility journey knows that it is a faith building journey.  In my deepest moments of dispair, I turned to my Heavenly Father because I knew that He was the greatest comforter.  My faith has never been tested as much as it was during those years of waiting for God's timing. 

Motherhood has strengthen my marriage.  I have the best husband!  We had 10 wonderful years together before Matthew came into our lives.  Being parents has not only increased our love for each other, it helps remind us to always strive to be the best example we can to our son.  We are the front line for how he perceives love and marriage when he gets older. 

I waited so long to experience motherhood. Years.  And so far it has been one of the greatest experiences in my life.  It is not easy.  And I know it will get harder.  But it's still one of the greatest callings in the wold.  I am honored to be called 'momma' by Matthew.

Matthew is ONE!!!

Happy Birthday to my baby boy!

I can't believe that it's been a whole year since you've entered this world and changed our lives forever.  What a blessing you have been to your daddy and me. 

It seems like it was just yesterday that you were this small!

I am guessing you weigh around 23lbs. (but we will find out at your 1 yr check up next week).

You are wearing a size 3 diaper during the day and size 4 at night.

 You are SO close to walking now. I love seeing how fast you can go with your little walker. You are exploring all over the house and keep us on our toes. You are getting into EVERYTHING and we are seeing a glimpse into the terrible two's because you will sometimes throw a fit if you can't get something.

You are slowly eating more table foods.  I have this fear of you having an allergic reaction or choking on new foods so we are proceeding with caution when it comes to eating.  You have switched over to whole milk pretty smoothly (thank goodness!).  The savings alone is a cause for celebration!

You started to have stranger anxiety and very clingy to mommy and daddy. 

You still love your books and it make me so happy to see you with an open book.
I hope it continues forever.

You have blessed our lives SO much this past year.  Our hearts have grown exponentially all because of you. We thank Heavenly Father every day for your sweet spirit.  It has been an AMAZING year for our little family and we hope and pray that we can continue to strive to raise you in a way that is pleasing to Heavenly Father. 

After many weeks of practice, you are now able to answer when we ask how old are you?! You hold up your little finger and make mommy so proud.  I love you sweet baby boy. 

Please know that you are SO loved!

Love Day

We celebrated Valentine's Day on Saturday by going out for Sushi and Hibachi with some friends (and Matthew of course).  Love me some sushi (the cook kind, not a fan of the raw stuff).

We knew that this week was going to be a crazy busy week as we finalize all the details of Matthew's birthday party this coming weekend. 

So on this LOVE holiday, I will be hugging and kissing on my baby boy all day, for he truly has his momma's heart!  Maybe I'll save some hugs and kisses for the hubby too.

Happy Love Day!

Steve went out early this morning and got me roses and caramel apple cider from Starbucks.

(The little box of twix below is from Matthew and I to Steve).

See if you can find our picture in this Valentine's collage.  Such a cute idea!

Working Moms

I am linking up at Kelly's Korner today for a 'Show Us Your Life' - Working Moms.

Let me start by saying that I know everyone's situation is different and everyone has different preferences.  There are some (like me) who would LOVE to be a stay at home mom and there are those who prefer to work outside the home.  Again, to each their own. 

While my dream would be to stay at home with my baby, it's just not possible, right now.  But someday that dream will come true, someday.

I am very blessed to work from home full-time.  I have an office in my home that I spend at least 8 hours in (with breaks in between of course, just like any other office job).  I have a great boss, who also works from home (in NC).  I feel like I have the perfect working mom's dream job. I don't have to commute AND I get to still see my baby anytime I want during the day.  I have a great babysitter that comes into my home and watches Matthew and I can 'hear' everything that is going on from my office.  I count my blessings everyday.

Now, reality still hits me like a ton of bricks when I look around my house and realize what a total mess it is! Like most working moms, I just don't have the time to get all the house chores done.  Some people think that just because I work from home, I have time to keep my house tidy.  Let me tell you, that is far from the truth!  After work, I have to care for Matthew, make dinner, bath time/play time/bed time for Matthew.  Then clean up dinner and try to clean up any immediate messes around the house. 

Then hubby and I will watch a little T.V. and I catch up on blogging (and FB and Pinterest).  He usually has to retire to bed early because he has a long commute.

Rinse and Repeat for the next day.

I don't have any tips on staying organized or keeping the house clean, etc.  I've read lots of blogs/pinterest on how to organize your home/baby/life, but I'm just too tired at the end of the day and alls I want to do is watch T.V. (aka something that doesn't require too much brain power). 

It helps when you have a great partner. My husband is the greatest because he shares in the household chores too.  Our lives are far from tidy and perfect, but we do the best we can.  Our primary goal is to raise our baby to love God and serve those around him (neither of which has to do with living in a perfect manicured house). 

Working full-time and taking care of a baby, a husband and a house IS a lot of work. And being a stay at home mom is no walk in the park either.  We are all given the life that we have because God knows what we can handle.

And a few times during the day, I get to see this little cutie at my office door!

Out for a Stroll

These pictures were taken three weeks apart. 

The one on the left was on a day where I didn't want to clean so I suggested we go for a walk.  Little did I know just how cold it was.  We made it to the end of the cul de sac and turned back around!

The picture on the right was taken  yesterday as we on our way to the playground. 

Today it was snowing!

Crazy weather.

As long as it doesn't snow on Matthew's party next Saturday!

We walked to the playground and Matthew had fun on the swing and slides.

Then it actually got chilly so we had Steve come pick us up.

It was nice to just get out of the house for a little bit so Steve could study.

Hard to believe my baby will be 1 next week!

You know it's a successful dinner when....

....you don't have to take turns eating while the other one takes baby outside of the restaurant!

We went out on Saturday for some Thai food and Matthew was being SO good.  There were some teenage girls at the table next to us and Matthew was charming them with his smile.

It was nice to eat in peace and enjoy our family time together.

After dinner, we went to get some FroYo for dessert. Yummy!

Matthew's first time trying frozen yogurt.  I think he likes it.

There were some girls a few tables away checking Matthew out and waving at him.

He's such a chick magnet!

In the Toilet

This little cutie pie has been keeping us on our toes around here. He has taken the baby chores to the next level by trying to clean play in the toilet. I was sitting in my office and I could hear him crawling toward me, then it got really quiet. I went to check to see where he went and I found him splashing his hands in the toilet. Gross! I quickly grabbed him and scrubbed his hands with soap. Now we have to keep the bathroom door closed completely.

And he has discovered the stairs too! Ai-yah! He'll be walking soon, then we're really in trouble. We tell him firmly 'no' and it doesn't phase him anymore. Where as before, when we would firmly say 'no' he would look at us with his sad face and teary eyes. Now he just looks at us, then continues to do whatever it is he's not suppose to be doing! Such a stinker.

We love every minute of watching him grow and exploring his surroundings. He makes us laugh and sometimes pull our hair out, but he is simply pure joy! He makes me smile every day and makes my heart grow bigger.  Love you baby boy.